Well, I guess it's alright.....

Well, my blog seems to be okay. I did change the comments to only registered users though.... no more anonamous people. I had a weirdo posting all these anonymous comments.
Oh well...

someone's messing with my blog

Someone has been messing with my blog and made it sick.....
I'm doing this post to see if it works right, but I might just have to make a new account.
Well, here's a try...

My Big Girl!

Here's the Birthday Girl!! Yesterday was a great day, her birthday started at 6:20 a.m. when she woke up for her morning feeding. Since she was born at 6:55 a.m. As I was rocking her, I could remember so clearly what had been going on at that moment one year ago. She is so precious, I am so thankful to God that he blessed me with this precious angel!

I am Woman, Hear Me Roar!!!

Since I have a free membership at Hendrick now, I figured I should take advantage of it and start working out!!
Well yesterday I tried their Body Combat Class..... Woah Baby!!!! I beat up some serious inner demons!! Seriously, I was in tears at the end of class, it was intense.... I am so excited to start being a part of people improving themselves! When you start working out your body, something inside makes you feel powerful, a power you don't fully understand. You get in the zone, you make yourself push harder, breathe deeper, concentrate..... I'm really starting to get into this fitness thing.... I can't wait to do it again today!!!!

I'm letting time pass by....

Well, as we all know yesterday was the 4th. I remember last year so vividly. I was 39 weeks along with Arra (not knowing I still had 15 days to go) we went up to ACU and I remember snuggleing with TJ (and my big belly) watching the fireworks and thinking to myself how different things would be next year.
Since the fireworks were at Shotwell, we decided not to go. Travis had been up at school all day and we were tired. But not TJ, we tried to put him to bed at 9:00 and he looked at us confused and asked about seeing fireworks. I felt horrible!! So, we loaded the kids in the car and drove to ACU and tried to watch the show from the WPAC 2nd floor windows. We could see them, however, it stunk. No sound no crowd excitement. TJ was bored, and I was pissed off at myself for letting this time pass me by. How dare I take away the excitement of fireworks from my son!! And after having such an amazing year last year, it just bummed me out BIG time!
We came home and did a couple of sparklers which he liked, but that's not the same.
I just don't get it. Last year I was huge with child, but I had so much energy, I had excitement, I had a life growing inside me, a son that I was crazy about. I feel so lazy with my family now.
We sit at home because we're tired, because we don't need to spend the extra money, yeah blah blah blah I'm always trying to think of excuses and justify why we sit on our ass, well I'm usually doing laundry or something. I'm just sick of it. I know having a 4 year old is such a challenge, but instead of trying to find new outlets for him I just keep doing all the old stuff and not liking the results.
So anywho. I'm going to stop beating myself up now, and starting today I want to schedule more time with my kids, not try to squeeze more time in at the office.
until next time-

I'm creating a post.

Hi Everyone,
I didn't know what to title this so here it is.
I really don't have anything much to say. My life seems insane right now, but good things are going on. I've been trying to memorize my Body Jam stuff, work, do props for the Shakespeare Festival show, be a mom and start preparing for my show in August. So that's what's up with me.... Boring entry I know, maybe I'll have an amazing story to tell soon!!
:)

My Mormon Visit.

Well, my mormon's came back yesterday for day 2 of our conversation. We had a good talk, but I don't think I converted them or anything. Travis thinks that I put too much pressure on myself sometimes, that I feel I have to go out and Change the world.... I was kinda bummed when they left, I had such an amazing spiritual experience before they got here, but they wern't on their knees repenting and burning their book of mormon when they left. Oh well, if anything it brought me closer to God and forced me to really study the word before they came back for their second visit. I did challenge them on one topic about the "Spiritworld" I asked what happened to the people that were alive during the rapture? Did they get to go to a place of waiting and get a second chance at paradise? Or is it just the bad luck of the draw that they were alive when Jesus came back so they just get an automatic ruling of heaven or hell..... if that's the case, I hope I'm not in that batch ;) But that wasn't really a "mormon" thing since I too have wondered if there was a place we go before the ultimate judgement. They couldn't answer my question so one of them wrote it down in his "research questions" notebook, who knows maybe he'll start to research the word deeper and will convert...... I asked them about the whole "they get their own planet rumor" it was indeed true, but they didn't know if they had been good enough to be given one from God, I asked if that meant that they got their own people to rule and everything, they said yes.... wow.... I want to be Queen of a planet.... wait, I bet girls don't get one though.... they just populate the planet. Okay, I don't want to be tacky so I'll stop. But after over three hours total with these guys, I do indeed want to remain just the way I am, I'm very satisfied, even if I won't get to have my own planet.....

Prayers Please

Okay you all, I auditioned today for the slot at Hendrick Health Club, and it sounds like I've got it.... So, next weekend is going to kick my booty. Training and learning the program. I need prayers for endurance and confidence. We have to memorize combinations at night and come back the next day and lead them... I've always been good following someone, but to be totally solo, I need some help. I think it's just a mental thing, but it needs to go away!! So, please be praying for me as I take this leap with a new job (of course I'll still be at ACU too) I hope that God uses this to open new doors for me, that I never even knew were there to open!